littleswallow

I got another job (gasp!). It’s only a contract role, but the repercussions are considerable – no more lady of leisure lifestyle, no more sleeping in until 8:30 and then rolling out of bed to go to the gym for a couple of hours…no more 43 things in the middle of the day!

I started going to the gym! This lady of leisure lifestyle, with all its doing nothing in the mornings then going to the hospital to see dad, was really taking it out of me…

Seriously though, I feel great. I’ve been every day for the last 10 days and I have loads more energy, I feel more positive, and I’m feeling more like the old me (the one who used to smile a lot more!).

I highly recommend this to everyone, exercise is certainly a positive influence on your life. And don’t worry if you think you have no motivation, I am definitely guilty of that – which is why I only do classes so I have instructors yelling at me to jump higher, run faster, lift more weight and SMILE!

I get pretty down sometimes. Actually it’s one of those weird cycles because usually when I’m feeling down, something bad happens. And I’m not sure if I feel down because subconciously I know something bad is going to happen, or if bad things happen because I subconciously make them happen by feeling down. If that makes sense.

So today, I woke up pretty down. And then the bad thing happened. News is dad isn’t getting any better. And that means potentially a liver transplant.

My family needs me around. And I couldn’t live with myself if something happened to dad and I didn’t make it home in time to see him. So the only option is to put everything on hold for now – no volunteer work in China, no travel.

It feels like this little swallow has fallen and broken a wing. All she wants is for her dad to get better.

The Alchemist and The Zahir have changed my life. It doesn’t need more explanation than that!

I officially joined the ranks of the unemployed. I finished work on Friday and I now have at least a week of sleeping in to embrace. I have become what I always aspired to be – a lady of leisure!

She inspires me. Not a story really, a sentance. Okay, it wouldn’t surprise me that if they x-rayed her she’d have two hearts, or that her’s was the size of a bucket.

My dad got sick. It’s pretty hard to come to terms with someone you love not being themselves. And it makes you act in different ways yourself.

I’m in a constant state of emotional confusion – I’ll be laughing one minute, then I remember dad’s in hospital and there will be tears welling. It’s hard when you’re helpless.

He amazes me with the way he thinks, and it gives me hope that there are people like him in the world

She’s a spunky chick with so much spirit and humour. Look forward to sharing lots of crazy adventures with you!